So we got this new five year old girl who cries for her mom every morning and admittedly she’s freaking adorable but the Korean staff has this solution of picking her up and consoling her during the break after she’s just been FINE in class which is just prolonging her period of crying throughout the day. Awesome.
Four more days until I can literally shut myself inside for five days and block out all the stupid
Suddenly, it’s like the sky opened up and rained down good fortune upon me.
My director came into my class just now and was like “are you doing something important can they read these books” and then without even waiting for an answer he just passed out all these books to the kids. Apparently they’re all supposed to be reading for some book report they have to submit to some competition and even though I’m not the teacher helping them with that they get to use my class time to work on it. Normally I’d be a bit annoyed by something like this but honestly my condition is so poor right now that I’m welcoming the peace (I even just typed piece and had to delete it) and quiet.
Then his wife came in and told me that she had bargained with my phonics class that is almost no longer a phonics class because we just finished the last book, and they somehow earned a class party and she went out and bought a snack for each kid (they got to request what they wanted individually). So for that class period I’m just going to let them watch a movie. Then I have the twin boys from that class who are the bane of my existence - they stay after twice a week for private lessons - but I’m just gonna squeeze ten minutes of book work out of them and then play a game.
Someone just sneezed and I tried to explain “bless you” but then I just gave up and started typing again. I’m going to sleep for like 15 hours tonight.
Not doing well. I’ve had a headache for three days. I cussed out some lady on the street for waiting until she was about to run me over to ring the bell on her bike. I feel like I’m about to just snap at any moment. I need a break.
Already not a good morning. I don’t take myself so seriously as to whine that my kindergarten students disrespect me (because come on). Most of the time I don’t take myself that seriously anyway, so I don’t expect much more than kids jumping off the tables when I come in to teach music. It’s amazing that their attention spans allowed me to teach them the difference between a line note and a space note.
The dynamic has just gotten so messed up in my baby (5/6 years) class. There’s one little boy that eeeeevery kid wants to sit next to. They will fight and cry if they can’t sit with him. Their attention during class is on him. In fact, sometimes I will say something and he will loudly tell everyone what he thinks I said, which is not always correct (because he wasn’t fully listening either). I can regain some sense of control (although I don’t really like calling it that) if I ask for it, but I’m tired of the drama. Actually, the only time he acts like he DOESN’T understand me is if he’s done something wrong and I’m asking him to stop. Then he just shrugs and says in Korean that he doesn’t know what I’m saying.
I guess my biggest problem is that with these kids being so young and this being a music class meant for them to play and enjoy themselves, I’ve been so focused on keeping a positive environment that I don’t follow a classroom management routine for this class. I thought I wouldn’t need it. My thought was “change activity frequently enough to keep interest and discipline isn’t necessary” - while that may be true sometimes, it’s also exhausting and sometimes there are legitimately times when I need them to listen.
I’m feeling guilty. The kids were lined up because I was giving them each a piece of vitamin candy. I let them choose the color they want sometimes, so today I asked what they wanted. One girl hesitated, so I asked her again, but I knew what she was doing. She wanted the boy behind her (THAT boy) to go first so she could get the same color as him. But he was behind her and I certainly was not about to change colors for every kid in front of her who had already gotten candy. So I waited, and then I chose a random color and held it out to her. She wouldn’t accept it, so after waiting a few more seconds I said calmly, “Okay then, you don’t want candy today. That’s alright.” Of course, after the next boy got his candy she finally told me what color she wanted but I ignored her. She really wanted only the same as him or nothing at all, because finally I tried offering her the same piece if candy again after a few seconds and she still wouldn’t take it. Okay. It’s just candy. Not worth ruining my day (but what have I been typing about for five minutes).
This same girl has pushed people out of the way to try to sit next to him and has also cried when someone got there first and didn’t move. The few times I got a higher up to help me with one of her fits their way of solving it was, “Okay you can sit with him NEXT time, alright??” EXCUSE ME STOP GIVING THE KIDS WHAT THEY WANT EVERY TIME THEY THROW A FIT YOU ARE MAKING MY JOB SO DIFFICULT
and really that should be the main topic of this rant. The truth is discipline does not fall on me, if I have problems I am supposed to send them to the boss and let him handle it. And it’s a toss up over what result that will yield, because sometimes he is too harsh on them and others he sends them back with a few finger wags, “don’t do that,” and a smirky grin on the kid’s face that says, “I just totally got away with that.” So can’t I get a good balance where the kid doesn’t end up crying but the director is still on my side?
Last night I was saying something stupid about how reading on the bus gives me motion sickness and suddenly I noticed that DH was just like.. Whole body turned towards me, looking directly into my eyes, his own eyes flashing interest, smiling, nodding eagerly.. I stopped what I was saying and was just like “what what what is happening what is this did I just do something stupid”
That boy was like “I just read an article on how to be a better listener to my girlfriend and so right now I’m ready to hear everything you say” and I swear I couldn’t stop laughing for five minutes straight
Dude how did I end up with this guy who just keeps trying to make me happy while all I’m doing is complaining about the heat ._.
My first thought when running through my mental check of all my classes for today was that today is Thursday. It didn’t take much time for that bubble to burst :(
I’m trying to get DH to watch Glitter with me (yes, the Mariah Carey movie). It’s not going well.
Him: so how many times did you watch it?
Me: about two.
Him: then it’s a pretty good movie?
Me: *surprised laugh*
Him: ANSWER ME.
later… Reading from a google search result about the movie: “to date, the glitter soundtrack is one of Carey’s worst selling albums.”
Him: THEN WHY DO I HAVE TO WATCH THIS MOVIE
Well, it is certainly better than before. It feels extremely soft and light, and after he washed and dried my hair there are no little frizzy parts near the top. The part he left curly isn’t exactly what I expected.. My hair tends to take curls quite literally, so he set them horizontal rather than vertical and they came out all confused looking. After a quick comb-through it looks just like my old hair only it looks like I very meticulously ran a flat iron through the roots and smoothed out the rest. Gravity has made the curls calm down a bit which is good. There’s this part in the front I have to tuck behind my ear or else force submission using a flat iron. Other than that I feel pretty satisfied.
And if the results aren’t what I wanted within a week, I can go back and ask them to fix it. So.
Idk if I should be scared or if this is going as planned, but having staff members come up and whisper nervously to the guy working on my hair isn’t exactly reassuring.
Sitting in a potential four hour hair appointment.. The talk before we started made me feel incredibly nervous (why on earth did I think bringing DH to translate was a good idea) “he said your hair is already really curly” “oh my god seriously I never owned a mirror yes my hair is curly and I love having curly hair I just hate THESE curls” “so do you want to straighten it then”
Oh god what if this is one of those “stay home from school” disasters
So I watched the Pokemon jirachi movie today and got a code to download a jirachi for my xy and then I typed a heart and the rest of the post got cut off daaaaaamn you tumblr app
ANNIE - Official Trailer (2014)
I’m not gonna lie, I teared up a little bit when I saw the trailer.
I’m sooo excited for this… cheese fest and all!
this is so freaking adorable and yes i cried. I can’t wait.
I CAN’T WAIT
So I’ll probably get slammed for this (because, tumblr) but here goes anyway. Ask box is open, slam away.
When the original Little Orphan Annie was written, chronologically we were a lot closer to a time where there was a strong bias against Irish people. By making Annie red haired, it was implied that she was of Irish descent, and by extension, the audience would have inherently known that was part of the bias against her.
Changing Annie’s race to African American replicates this same dynamic in modern society, and that’s a big part of why so many people were upset by it. A BLACK orphan?! Nooooooo, keep her white and red haired and cute I DON’T WANT TO DEAL WITH HOW THIS IS MAKING ME UNCOMFORTABLE.
Casting Annie as black in 2014 is a much more true to the original character than casting her as a caucasian red head.
I second the “I teared up” comment, and additionally I CAN’T WAIT to show this to my kids. They’re going to be so excited, because they’ve all learned “Tomorrow” in music class, it’s one of their favorites, and therefore the older Annie movies are also the most asked for movies (after Frozen). <3
So I had a great weekend. Citybreak was so much fun, and I enjoyed having all that time with my brother right before he leaves. It’s Monday now, and I find myself feeling pretty at peace with it for once. I’m just back at work and the kids were extra cute during circle time this morning in music (they made the circle as small as possible and then when we were reviewing finger numbers they were all attempting to show me the correct fingers by shoving them in my face omg)
I can’t believe my brother is leaving tomorrow.. I got all my music classes pushed up before lunch so that I can leave during lunch time and head to the airport, hopefully having enough time to get in a good lunch before putting him on the plane. I’m going to cry, whether it’s in front of him or while I’m taking the subway back, but definitely I’m going to cry at some point. I am already feeling this emotional “no no no this can’t happen not yet” pulling at me. This past month was just too short.
I’m sending him home with about $500 to buy stuff he needs for the semester, clothes, dorm stuff, whatever. He’s a freshman this year and doesn’t have a lot of financial support from home so I want to make sure he gets through this year okay. He’s also going to need money for a hotel in Dallas because I couldn’t get the bus and the flight arrival on the same day ;_; His flight lands at like 11pm and his bus leaves at around noon the next day. It’s a lot of trouble but now that I’ve seen him in Seoul I feel confident about his ability to get around in Dallas. He followed me around once when I was totally lost because he thought I knew where I was going, but actually he had a good sense of where we were the entire time and I just needed to ask him where the thing was TT
I think the hardest part of saying goodbye is not knowing when our next hello will be. Maybe a year from now? I wish I could say I had the money to travel during Christmas, but that just won’t happen this year. :(
So we were pretty close for the ptx show today. Rain didn’t start until the end of their show so we stayed mostly dry :)